Sep 14

In our childhood, we become captivated by a magical world that elaborate fairy tales create. As children, we eagerly listened to our mothers or fathers vividly recite to us a delicately woven story of a fairy princess and her prince. Even as adults, we can sometimes lose ourselves in that elegant and fragile world of a fairy tale. As we progress into adulthood, we forget the initial enchantment we experienced as children when we heard our first real fairy tale. However, we don’t have to forget the wonder and magic from our childhood.

Having a mother whose name was Belle, and sharing that name with me, didn’t ever strike me as anything significant. It wasn’t until I was eight and saw Disney’s Beauty and the Beast that I became captivated with the magic of the French farm girl who shared my name and sang about a quiet village. That summer, my grandmother had somehow procured a copy of the VHS. She set me down in front of the television one afternoon, no doubt when I was begging for her to help me draw a mural with sidewalk chalk. As an eight year old growing up in the nineties, I was instantly hypnotized by the opening Disney logo. This was all mystifying to me: the ancient looking styling of the beginning cartoon sequence, the whispery story of the prince and the rose, and the introduction to a strange girl who lived in a world beyond this one. Read the rest of this entry »

May 18

I just got this in my email from my aunt Juanita.

Are you looking forward to tomorrow? It makes me think back to my own graduation back in 1982. I didn’t even get to go out to eat after wards. We just went to the graduation and then went home. Mama and Daddy gave me a gold ring. Mark was there. I wore a white sun dress under my cap and gown. My cap and gown were gold and white. We were the Doches Dragons. I had white strap heels. My hair was about as long as it is now. No one took any photos of me or the ceremony. So I dont even have any to show you. My Memaw came to it. Someone brought her cause she couldnot drive. Prob aunt Jackie. Your graduating makes me a little melancholy. I remember when you were so tiny. The size of a 8X10 photo frame. I dont think you realize how tiny you were.

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May 18

B. Believe in Yourself

Wednesday
Wednesday afternoon after I had written my last blog, ABC of Growing Up, I went outside and spread out a sheet on the ground. I spent all afternoon meditating on who I want to be and where I want to go. I watched the sun melt into the earth and I waited in anticipation as the stars began to wake. I prayed to the universe, as I never had before, and I worshiped the fireflies and the swooping bats. I was the audience to a countless symphony of crickets and katydids. I wished on the stars that the people before me had written poems about. For the first time in a long time, I remembered how to love the universe. I remembered how to speak to God. Read the rest of this entry »

Dec 17

Christmas is a lot less Christian than you thought. Did you ever wonder why Jesus’ birthday is celebrated in December when it’s more accurate to celebrate it in September? Why Christmas is celebrated with decorated trees, lights, and wreaths?

Towards the end of the fourth century, the Church moved the birthday of Jesus from the commemoration of the baptism on the 6th of January, to the 25th of December. The reason why the Christian fathers made the change was because it was the custom of the pagans to celebrate the birth of the sun on December 25th. From time immemorial the birthday of the sun had been celebrated on this day, with great rejoicing in many lands. In 274 AD the Roman emperor, Aurelian, who was anxious to replace Roman polytheism with sun worship, declared the 25th of December to be the Sun’s official birthday. Christians often took part in these candlelit processions and ceremonies. The fathers of the church noted this inclination, and resolved that the true nativity should be solemnized on that day; and the festival of the Epiphany would remain on January 6th.

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Oct 25

My favourite holiday is Halloween. I love the way autumn makes you feel and I love all the magical spookiness of Halloween. When I was younger we celebrated things like the feast and other holidays of the old testament. When I was very young my family didn’t even celebrate birthdays, viewing them and other traditional American holidays as pagan. It wasn’t until I was eight or nine that I celebrated my first Christmas, receiving a Chronicles of Narnia cartoon tape from my mother, which was eventually hidden or thrown out by my father. For being so oddly zealous in odd memories like this one, he doesn’t even attend church anymore nor does he make an attempt to contact me. That last time I heard, he moved to Indiana. After we began celebrating Christmas was around the time my immediate family began attending non-denominational church, the others in my family are still scared from the old church we once attended. Read the rest of this entry »

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